It is amazing how quickly time goes by. I know it is a cliche, but it’s because it’s true. I cannot believe that my oldest child is 12 and my youngest is 4. I also can’t believe that I wont be having any more children. I want more, but my husband does not, so we are keeping it at 3.
I see big families with 5 children and I think, I want that. I want my life overflowing with joy and love and sadness and frustration and all the things that come with raising a family. I love being a Mom, I really do. It completes me, it has given me so many gifts and I don’t want it to ever end.
I have realized that I am so happy I became a mother fairly young. It has allowed me to grow so much. I am still young, and yet I feel very wise. I feel like I have so much figured out. I am happy that I didn’t waste my youth partying and “trying to find myself”. I am happy that I was at home with a baby (even though at the time I felt that I was missing out). I realize that I like being home, I like taking care of things here, cooking and cleaning.
I wish I could stop time, right here. I wish I could make every second extend into an hour. The days go by so quickly, they come and are gone. My baby is no longer a baby. My first child is growing up, soon she’ll be off on her own. I am happy to get to the future, I look forward to it. But I also want to cherish today, I don’t want now to end.
Of course, we can’t stop time, but we can savor it. We can slow down and enjoy it. We can make the most of the fast days.
I know that right now, I am in the prime of my life. I am full to the brim, I am overflowing with gratitude and happiness for the life I have. I am so very lucky.